It's been a rough couple of weeks. I have found myself right back in the midst of being weepy and having angry outbursts. I can't even say where they have come from. I can't even verbalize any negative thoughts going on that would cause these feelings. They are just there. =P I feel like I'm walking around with my heart in my stomach. Just when I thought I could manage going on without him, I've had to revert back to taking it one day, or moment at a time. 

Questions

~Steven Curtis Chapman

Who are You God
For You are turning out to be
So much different than I imagined

And where are you God
Cuz I am finding life to be
So much harder than I had planned

Know that I am afraid
To ask these questions
But You know they are there

And if you know my heart
The way that I believe you do
You know that I believe in You
Still I have these questions

Like How could you God
How could You be so good and strong
And make a world that can be so painful

And where were you God
I know you had to be right there
I know you never turn your head

You know that I'm confused
By all this mystery
You know I get afraid
But if you know my heart
As completely as I trust you do
Oh you know that I trust in you

Is it true
that for every tear I cry
You cry a thousand more
Cuz you weep for those that weep

And are you, just holding yourself back
From crushing all the pain and evil in this world
For reasons we just cant understand for now
But isn't there a day of redemption coming
Ohhh
Redemption is coming
Ohhh

Quickly Lord, come quickly
Lord, come quickly
Ohhh Ohhh

So who am I God
That you would raise me from the dust
To breathe your life and your love in me
You know that I believe

I love him...and HIM! Jesus and Jeffrey, together forever. =)